Sweet Anticipation…

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Dear Spirit……….Pure GRATITUDE flows through me in great waves this evening!!    I can not see that which is about to reveal itself…………..but it feels wondrous!!

What a blessing that is!!     For too many evenings in this life have been filled with concern and weariness.    So…….on this non-descript…but truly empowering evening…I scream “THANK YOU”!!!!

Is it true??   Can it be that you’re about to gift my world with something extraordinary and transformative???

I welcome these blessings!!    With open heart and arms……….I welcome all that will bring great love and joy into my life!!!

Let this precious early morn (nearly 1am now)…….bring the DAWN of a brand new day!!!  

In sweet blissful anticipation…I WELCOME THE GIFT OF NEW BEGINNINGS and BRIGHT BLESSINGS!!! ♥

In JOY and GRATITUDE,

Alania

Emotional Clearing……On Energetic Levels

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Wowwww!!   How real emotional reminders and memories can be!!

I was recently gifted an opportunity to journey through my chakra points in tune to music.     The exercise was designed to let us energetically feel the power and flow of each chakra (major energy centers within the body).

I was fully caught unaware when the music shifted and my energy rose to the Heart Chakra.     I was so looking forward to joyfully feeling the LOVE flow passionately through.     But I couldn’t sense the Love that is so much a part of who I am.    In that moment…only sadness and pain filled my soul.    

With breathwork and prayer I tried to clear that blocked energy….so the joyful Love could flow.    But this sadness and pain was deeply rooted.     So I accepted the gift of Awareness in that chakra…and looked forward to the shifting music that would elevate our focus to the next chakra point.

In perfect time….we shifted our attention to the Throat Chakra.     While envisioning my power-filled voice carrying far and wide……..I awakened a great big wave of anger within me!!!  

Really?!?!    Now…when I should be joyfully envisioning my voice flowing free and strong….genuine anger is rising within me!?!?    I could see the crowd of countless souls throughout time who did not recognize, appreciate, or honor the beauty and light that I am.

In each of those challenged moments…the desire to withdraw, hide, and cocoon myself was overwhelming.    It was bravery to simply stand strong.

But the energy once again shifted…and by the time we reached the energy of the crown chakra I was celebrating my life once again.

Here’s the curious part.      Once the exercise was complete….I was grounded in my current truth…but the memories of that pain and injustice was still present and real.   I was feeling greatly impacted by the power of those emotions.

So I stood beneath the Full Moon last night and welcomed guidance.    Grandmother Moon was very clear.    She asked “Do you wish to release and clear the beliefs and energies that evoke these emotions??”

I answered “YES” immediately….and she responded “Then that is enough.    You are not alone in this.”

I walked away feeling saved…but discovered something even more curious about my self throughout the night.

You see……..I never realized that deep emotions and memories can sometimes intoxicate us.    They sometimes trap us in an illusion that comforts us……although that comfort is triggered through pain.  

I can now see that we sometimes cling to the sadness, pain, anger because it is a connection point to the people or experiences we once loved.     To make it clear……….the memories place me right back in the moments that created those patterns.     And those moments are a connection point to the good memories too.    They are all linked.

So it is very difficult to genuinely wish to “release and clear the beliefs and energies that evoke those emotions”.       We feel as though we are closing the door on all the good and beauty too.

This morning I sit in Awareness.     A part of me wishes to delve more deeply into the memories…so that I can recall some of the beauty.      But I am certainly aware enough to know that pain, sadness, and anger is not a healthy route to freedom and love!!! ♥      

So today I remember beautiful Grandmother Moon’s words.      Today I choose to clear and release…..knowing that once I am free of illusion and thoughts of separation….there will be only beautiful memories to recall!!!

It’s time to free myself from the negative perceptions of these experiences and memories……….not the experiences and memories themselves!!!!!

Dear Spirit…..THANK YOU FOR THIS OPPORTUNITY TO HEAL!!!! ♥    

I Accept and Trust This Beautiful Journey!!!

And Thank YOU to the ever-radiant Kim Kennedy who lovingly provided this opportunity to heal!!!    Her JOURNEY INTO SOUL events are thought-provoking, knowledge-filled, and soulfully-inspirational!!!!     I am forever blessed by this experience!!

In Joy and Gratitude for ALL that Is,

Alania

Re-claiming MY Ancient S-t-u-f-f

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Amazingly….Perspective shifts everything!! ♥

I will honestly reveal that over these last few days… when I think of my father (who transitioned into beautiful Light two years ago)…I am naturally recalling many of the irritating, less-than-loving quirks he was known for.

The memory always comes through with laughter…but beneath I do sense deep frustration within my being too.    There’s a deeper part of me that can’t seem to find Peace with all of his choices and behaviors….even though I wish to see the best.

Soooooo…Spirit saw a great big opportunity to help me HEAL in dream state once again.  (((Smile)))

Within my deep dream state last night….my Dad drove up to where I was…with a big ol’ pick up truck and trailer.     It was over-filled with all of my stuff!!    It appeared to be all that I had piled up and stored in his garage and basement over the years.    And in this single moment….he wanted to be free of it.  

This spontaneous irrational behavior was certainly an aspect of his earth-persona…so I was processing this dream experience through all of my patterned earth-traits too.

He simply drove up and said “Take your stuff back!!    I don’t care where it goes.   It’s yours.”  

I easily recognize all as being mine…but most items were my antiques and treasured finds from over the years.     I began imagining where I would put them for now.    As I peeked around for options…Dad left my view and I began finding items that belong to me everywhere I turned!!!

How did I not notice that so many people had mis-appropriated my stuff??    I began re-claiming items and finds…whether they were valuable or not.    I was filled with integrity as I genuinely retrieved only that which was mine.  

This went on and on…and I then began focusing on needing boxes and rolling racks to carry all.    That’s when I WOKE UP!! ♥

While in dream state (for half the night)…I felt disrespected, intruded upon, unappreciated, and victimized.    I sensed all of these emotions…and was totally re-directed from the beautiful abundant life I have now!!

Within moments of waking up…and processing this dream from Awareness…I realized that all of my stuff was old, un-needed antiques!!    Nothing at all was of value for this moment.    All was part of an ancient me.

And instantly I realized “Take your stuff back!!” meant….I won’t harbor YOUR stuff any longer!!    Dad will no longer take responsibility for MY reactions, beliefs, or perceptions.    It’s time to take ownership of MY OWN disappointments and mis-perceptions.

Dad and I certainly had a score of past-lives together.    We pushed each others buttons like no one else could…and we understood each other too…like no one else could.

Perhaps I didn’t always see from the highest perspective throughout our relationship.    Maybe I could only see through MY self-serving interpretation.     Maybe…valid or not…all of my ancient views, beliefs, perceptions need to be CLEARED in order for me to begin seeing his beauty and our relationship through new eyes!!!

Seeing those flat-beds full of ancient things….makes me realize how DEEP my patterned beliefs go.    It’s time to begin praying for CLARITY and TRUTH.     It’s time to begin clearing the OLD….and welcoming the NEW!!!

I pray that Wisdom, Love, Forgiveness (of self and others), and Healing Light accompany me on this journey of new discovery.    May I learn to see Dad in greater TRUTH. ♥

And….to finish up the tale…let me express that all I was re-claiming from others throughout the dream…were ancient items too.    I was re-claiming them from people, places, and relationships that felt less-than-loving and supportive in my life.     So…I do know and understand that this is much greater than Dad.     This is about shifting the way I “believe another can hurt, disappoint, or affect me”.

Dad is only my TEACHER………once again. ♥

Thank YOU Dad!!

As we run around Disney today (we happen to heading to Disney today)………you’ll be with us in all ways!!    We Love You!!!

In Joy and Awareness,

Alania

Two Great Loves…

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Yes!!   I’ve had two great, reality-bending Loves in my life!!

Both experiences lifted my spirit beyond the physical to spiral in the blissful wonder that LIFE can be!!    And…both experiences gifted me with a colossal MIRROR of SELF to immerse myself in…once they came to an end.

And although that Mirror was fogged for a respective time in each journey….the FOG eventually cleared and brought through the radiance of my own precious SELF because of these journeys!!

In short…no part of each journey was a mistake!!      No choice was less than perfect!!

The first Love took my breath away!!    It washed the world away from my periphery….and only allowed me to register Life through the gateway of that Love.     That Love became my breath…and my power.     Without recognizing it…it became my security, my identity, and my life.

So….when it was suddenly taken from my world…all sense of trusted-reality went with it.     I was left with only my seemingly empty Self…and a FIRE that blindly pushed me forward in each moment.      That tale of awakening is beyond powerful and awe-inspiring…but not a topic for today. ♥

Denial and fruitless questioning was all I knew for a quite a bit…until I began to build a new foundation for myself!!     The wonder of Life and its beauty filled me once again…and my focus stayed on the positive, on the new, and on the blessings that surrounded me.

After what had seemed like an eternity….I found mySELF!!!

And without that journey to push me forward, to see with new eyes, to explore my inner depths…I never would have found her at all. ♥     Each moment of bliss…and each moment of pain was an intricate part of my journey!!    I honor them all.

And so…with awareness I welcomed a new Love into my life.      I envisioned every aspect…manifested every magical element…and was prepared for the wonder that would present itself!!

After months of knowing his Spirit on the higher realms…he walked into my life…and lit that eternal flame within once again!!

This Love broke all barriers of limitation.    It manifest pure Sacred Light in the here and now.    It caused the cosmos to shake…and the Masters of all time to appear and converse!!

My physical self was non-existent.   In this Love I knew only eternity, only limitlessness, and only bliss.

The universe supported that love…and celebrated it in wondrous ways.

But…as the fog began to clear…I recognized that this Love only existed on the higher realms!!    That may be difficult for you to comprehend.     But it is true!!

With this Love I maintained awareness through it all.    Without judgment…I was honest with myself in all moments…and could suddenly see that I was in Love with his Spirit, his Soul, his timeless Self!!     But that precious part of him…was not all of him.

In a wave of true and pure Love…I stepped free…and was faced with the MIRROR of SELF once again.

Was I blinded??    Did I manipulate the natural flow??    Was I in an altered state throughout that experience??

Although I knew the answer…it took me a while to be at PEACE with the answer.    The self-doubt…though silent and unseen…still remained until just recently.

When I least expected it…and when I certainly wasn’t looking for it…I felt Spirit’s presence near me and the words reverberate through me:

“Two Great Loves.   And no moment was less than perfect!!”

I didn’t know it.   But those were the words I needed to hear.   A great PEACE now fills me…and I know that I AM the one who has welcomed this new level of healing, understanding, and being!!      I suddenly know that I AM the one ready to free myself from all less-than-loving perspectives and beliefs.

It’s time to remember that my journey is much much greater than only that which has been.    I sense this moment…and all future moments…suddenly holding much more power and purpose than those now passed.    I feel FREEEEEEEEEEE…..and ready to Love in much greater ways than that which I’ve known.

So I shift my awareness to that which now appears.     I look forward to the beauty and blessings flowing to me here and now.

To the beautiful brother who presents himself in each of my powerful visions…I WELCOME YOU!!    Our souls are already at home in one another’s embrace.    Why wait another day??     If you can sense the beating of my heart from your current stance…then we are already ONE.    Break down the barriers of limitation…and find your way HOME.

Whewwwwww.    Can’t say it more clear than that.

At times I wonder why I allow myself to be so raw and revealed in these blog posts.    And then I realize…how can I not??    I’ve spent lifetimes hiding in the shadows……and regardless of what comes….free expression is truly my greatest gift!!      I hold no fear….only Love.

In JOY and Ever-expansive Faith,

Alania

 

 

“See Peace Like A River” Between You and Me

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Beyond the words, the speech, the action…it’s time to begin seeing PEACE flow like a river between you and me!!

It’s time to begin seeing PEACE as a perpetual energy in motion…with the power to heal, to transform, to transmute, and to create.

See no man standing in opposition to this force.    See all being touched by the sweet wonder that it is.

In this moment and all moments…PEACE flows to touch all.    It is no longer the privilege of a chosen few!!

I believe that it’s time to begin trusting that PEACE already flows powerfully through this earth realm!!    It’s time to begin seeing it alive and in motion….like a vibrant river flowing between every beautiful soul!!

I’ve had two powerful dream visions about PEACE over these last two nights:

The first dream vision followed our Global Peace Prayer…aligned with the UNITED NATIONS INTERNATIONAL DAY OF PEACE of September 21st.     I was sleeping peacefully…and then looked into the bright blue sky.    There were a few white wispy clouds…with an intense brilliant LIGHT beaming through.   I focused my vision on that point…and instantly recognized the United Nations emblem shimmering in pure divine light.     It’s light blanketed the earth…and I knew that humanity’s prayer for PEACE on this earth…had prevailed!!

I knew that WE as a United Consciousness…chose PEACE as our path!!    And now we would be more supported on that journey…than ever before. ♥

The second dream vision occurred last night.    Again I was in a peaceful state…just allowing all to take shape around me.    I suddenly recognized that PEACE was flowing around me in waves and vibrations of energy.    Then I noticed to be ware of my subconscious beliefs.    I saw these waves flowing forward…and then sidestep around someone that had just frustrated me a bit that day.   

Once it sidestepped…the wave paused and I heard “SEE PEACE LIKE A RIVER!!”     I knew that for this Peace to grow in force and power upon this earth…it’s important for me to see no man in opposition to the peaceful energy that flows!!   Hold no judgment over who welcomes Peace, embraces it, or understands it.    Simply SEE PEACE flowing like a river between you and me!!     

In a river no thing is untouched by the sacred waters that flow!!

And so I awaken this morning knowing that so much is in motion at levels unseen!!!    This is a brand new day…and we are shifting our boundaries of acceptable experiences in truly amazing ways!!

I’m so honored to be part of this shift!!

I’m so honored to know that PEACE FLOWS LIKE A RIVER between you and me!!!

Namaste’ my brothers and sisters!!

In Joy and Gratitude,

Alania

May It Be ‘Peace Day’ Every Day

Just a few moments ago…my son’s grumpy early morning voice said “I don’t want an english muffin”.    I responded by saying “No grumpiness please.   It’s Peace Day.”     He instantly replied “I thought it was Peace Day yesterday.”   And I proudly and joyfully expressed “Yes.   We’re now making it Peace Day every day!!”.

Our intricately and beautifully planned community Peace Day event was canceled due to impending weather and various unseen (but oh so wise) forces.     As all that I’d been envisioning and planning for months shifted course…I truly only felt PEACE in my heart.    I was so empowered to know that I wasn’t attached to any particular outcome.   I trust in the flow.

As it turned out…after all had been shifted to alternate visions for the day…the sun began to show more brightly than it had in days!!     Radiant souls still came out in expectations of an event…but were granted the opportunity to discern how they each wished to spend the precious time!!

I wasn’t there to guide them.   No music led the way.    It was now a beautiful challenge to their unique souls….”Will peace still be the way??”.

I will honestly share with you that on Saturday…as I sensed the ever-flowing disappointment from countless souls…I was deeply catapulted into cavernous past life insecurities.    A great big part of my spirit had believed that if I accept responsibility for great numbers….I have the potential to let them down.     And here I was…face to face with that experience once again.

I went through a myriad of emotions for several hours…until I came to THE bright and beautiful awareness that brought me true and deeeeeeppppp PEACE!!!     I was suddenly able to see that the disappointment I sensed flowing to me…was only a reflection of the disappointment I carried for more than a few thousand years.

I suddenly realized that the Priestess (in my repetitive past life vision) all dressed in white…upon alabaster steps…was the one who carried this great sadness and disappointment within her.    She still carries great guilt for not having the power to save others from their unique journeys and/or tragedies.

My whole body shook in the light of this new opportunity!!

Am I ready to FORGIVE MYSELF for believing that I may not be enough??     Am I ready to TRUST that I can hold no responsibility for being more than I naturally am??  

Life is ever-flowing.     It’s time to trust that if we are authentic in all moments…we are always enough!!

Life is meant to be shared.    We can’t play all the parts…and expect a neat and happy outcome.    We must allow others to play their parts tooooooooo.    We must offer all the opportunity to co-create with us…in beautiful authenticity.

I only need to honor my voice, my light, my truth….and release from needing others to see, validate, or appreciate that which I am.     They either see…most naturally…or life will continue to flow from there.  )))Smile(((

And SO……..I found greater Peace than I’d ever imagined could be!!!    It was not the day I’d envisioned…or that which I would have voluntarily chosen.    And YET…..I am now forever blessed because of this journey!!

On Sunday….we all gathered in a powerful way to celebrate the true INTERNATIONAL DAY OF PEACE across the globe!!    Our hearts and hands were united….and waves of true LOVE flowed endlessly through…to touch who would be blessed upon this globe!!

I held no expectations of myself…and who I needed to be.    We all shared our voice…and co-created that ceremony as ONE RADIANT LIGHT!!!     Voices rose strong in harmony…and touched deep within my SOUL!!!!!     Bodies moved in JOY….laying the foundation for a WORLD OF PEACE and LOVE!!!!

Beyond words……WE WERE ONE!!

And SO………we are the microcosm for the macrocosm that is and will be!!

No great big plans led the way.    Only a heart-centered wish to UNITE and KNOW LOVE!!!

So what prevents us from creating this JOY each and every day??

What prevents us from envisioning hearts uniting…and disharmonies melting??

If PEACE BEGINS WITH ME…………then I shall endeavor to make it ‘Peace Day’ everyday!!!

Without intricate plans and expectations…I shall welcome the CELEBRATION of brotherly/sisterly love into my heart each day!!!

THANK YOU TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLL WHO WALKED WITH ME THIS WEEKEND!!!    Seen and unseen….I so honor you!!!

Thank YOU To MaryLou Houllis and New Beginning Oneness Center for loving me, supporting me, inspiring me, and encouraging me!!    Beyond measure….I LOVE YOU!!!! ♥

And…..as a perfect compliment to all that I’d embraced…a radiant sister walked up to me yesterday and expressed “Thank You for that wonderful walk in the park yesterday!!   It was blissful…and just what I needed.”

My heart rejoiced!!!   She got the message…….and accepted the privilege of CHOOSING her own joyful journey!!!    How precious she is to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥

Thank You Dear Spirit….for secretly planning this all!!!!!!!

In JOY and Absolute Wonder,

Alania

Freedom In Authenticity

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I hold such a radiant vision of HEARTS and HANDS united!!    Beyond distinct moments and motivations…I truly see a family of LIGHT uniting across this globe…freeeeeeeeing every lost and self-imprisoned soul!!

Do you ever feel that you are not enough…or that who you are does not matter??

My heart breaks as I think of any precious soul perceiving themselves in this way!!    And I also knowwwwww that these perceptions touch us all at times!!

If we are brave enough to be authentic…then we can FACE and HEAL the core belief that has allowed us to feel that way!!

If I am fully rational in this moment…then I can explain every nay and yay perspective away!!   I can give voice and validation to each pro and con flowing through my mind.    But all of these rational view points are not appeasing or bringing PEACE to the sweet beautiful spirit within me.

This morning I genuinely feel as though I’m on a translucent edge of reason.

Behind me is the safety and comfort of rationality and order.   Beneath me is a crystalline platform of transparent truth.   And Before me lies the blissful wonder of every thing and no thing combined.

What a profound space to be in!!    It breaks all barriers of comprehension…and yet speaks more clearly to my heart than I can ever express.

My body (heart, mind, and soul) are currently leaning over this translucent, transparent edge of authenticity.    The freedom of simply BEing without judging, expecting, proving, or validating is calling to me!!

So….what holds me back from releasing??

This precise moment (as I write this) marks “midnight” between September 20th and September 21st,     We are officially stepping into the International Day of Peace….and what is traditionally marked as the Fall Equinox.    There is great power for me in each of these events!!

  • In honor of PEACE DAY I have been welcoming great Peace into my heart…at all levels of being…so that I may truly be a genuine beacon of Peace upon this earth.    I have been challenging my own thought processes…and asking LOVE to transform all miscommunication and discord…both inwardly and outwardly.   And I have been deeply open and receptive to all support that may bring greater clarity and understanding.

In each moment of clear prayer and meditation…Spirit tells me “PEACE BEGINS WITHIN”.    So I’ve been real with each of my emotions…and seeking to heal and harmonize all that clings to limiting, victim-conscious mentalities.

  • AND…the Fall Equinox has personally marked a door over these last twelve years (noticeably) that catapults me into a secluded space of my own making.    Each year…this shadowed time of year naturally triggers me to RETREAT into a deep cave of Self.

This lonesome journey within is always triggered by me believing that I’m not enough…or me believing that others are not appreciating the efforts and energy I offer.    In short…it triggers my personal insecurities.

Each year the challenge to BE THE LIGHT is a bit easier and more effortless.    Each year the cavernous journeys within become less daunting.   But still the shadows and illusions appear.

This particular dawn of PEACE and TRANSFORMATION has triggered a deeeeeeeepppp emotional response within my being!!    I feel myself processing LIFETIMES of self-judgment and irrational responsibility for others in a raw and real way.   And I sense…that I am no longer willing to CLAIM the false judgment and responsibility that was once acceptable for me!!

So I stand on this translucent edge!!    Behind me lies the recycled patterns of self-doubt and limitation.    Beneath me lies the uncertain but TRUE perspectives of Self-Love and Acceptance.    And before me lies the sweet ever-flowing BLISS of surrender into simply BEing all that I naturally AM…without any self-imposed limitations!!

If I choose to un-tether myself from past perceptions and self-imposed limitations…only FREEDOM can I know in the AUTHENTICITY that is ME!!! ♥

My outer world IS a reflection of the world I hold within!!    Each year I’ve been triggered by my own demons and fears.   Am I ready to release feeling POWERLESS???     Am I ready to accept and honor the Respect, Love, and Appreciation of my beautiful SELF!?!?!

DEAR SPIRIT…I know the strength is within me to do so!!!    Do not let me fall ‘back’ from this edge of sweet freedom and transformation!!    Please push me forward into the blissful world of SELF-ACCEPTANCE and LOVE!!!!!    Please support me in FREEing that timeless me that feels responsibility for every incarnate soul and their personal security. ♥

I AM LOVE

I AM JOY

I AM BEAUTY

I AM ENOUGH

And so it is!!

In Gratitude, Wonder, and Deep PEACE,

Alania