Holograms of A Time Gone By


Memories can sometimes resurrect the remembrance of past moments, emotions, and experiences.     But it is not a memory that I speak of today.   Memories are simply the vehicle we use to “recall” and “reconnect” from a self-reflective point of view.

These holograms are much greater than a recalled experience.   From an unseen but discernible point of being……they actually seem to present and awaken the energies of that particular time gone by.   Imagine a de’ja’vu…..but with awareness.

Throughout my journey of awakening….I have experienced them several times….as once hidden parts of myself emerge to be cleansed in the Light of greater truth.    But this particular hologram that presents itself to me now….is persisting for more than a few days.    It is definitely time for me to understand this healing phenomena more completely!!!

For clarity and understanding…..I’ll describe my hologram to you now.

There have been a great number of times these last few days…….where I sense the energies of my past all around me.     For that split de’ja’vu-like moment….I actually feel like the self I was 13 years ago.    I can sense the home I had, waiting for me to return…….the husband I had, calling out to me….and the emotions I felt, now filling me.

I instantly remind myself that these sensations are not real……….and I’m actually shocked that my world is not as it once was.    Over and over I am processing the shock of this truth.

I shift and refocus my energy to the beauty of Now………..but I can still easily identify with the woman I was.    Reality is warped in these moments………and the past is all too approachable.

I have always believed that these time-locked energies that can present themselves as holograms have been stored within our own energetic frequency.   By giving voice to them……in love….we free them from that time-lock and merge them back into our wholeness.

But……they usually last no more than a day or so.

Dear Spirit……I’d like to know why I’m still feeling the presence of these past energies awakened??   I ask for clarity, guidance, and truth!!   Thank you.

Aaaaahhhhh….you’re too hard on yourself sometimes.   Still yourself for a moment dear one.   

You are identifying with that aspect of you because there IS an aspect of your precious self caught in that self-created time warp!!!    

Think back my dear.   To “move forward” from all you knew was not an easy choice.   It was the bravest thing you’ve ever done.     You knew it was the right choice for you……..and that it would eventually lead you to a path of discovery.

But…….there were also valid and precious parts of yourself that could not fathom a world other than that which you had known.  So………they (those parts is your precious spirit) clung to that alternate reality………and remained there harmlessly….until they recognized that they too want more.

Recently, your prayers have been for Wholeness….at all levels of being.        These energies that appear as holographic in nature are absolutely real!!!!   They call out and present themselves to you because they’d like you to know that they are still immersed in that alternate sense of reality.

From that point of recognition……..you can decide if you’d like to welcome those precious parts of you back into the whole!! 

But my dear……please know that this alternate reality feels and appears real to those ancient parts of yourself.     You and they….together…..must once again make the decision to “step forward” freely into discovery.

You must stand in compassion and grace as you choose a new path for all aspects of yourSelf.    If you push through authoritatively……you won’t be honoring that precious part of yourSelf and its valid truth.      See, sense, and feel as those ancient aspects of yourSelf do……….and then lovingly GUIDE them to this new, empowering, and ever-expansive reality!!

Let them know that you welcome them home………..and celebrate their presence and participation in your current journey!!

These holograms (as you call them) are offering an opportunity for you to SEE yourSelf more clearly!!    Do not resist, detach from, or dismiss their powerful call.      A part of you is longing to be seen and embraced!!

Blessings my dear…..on your journey of self-discovery!!!!    We love and honor your Bravery and Light in all ways!!


THANK YOU!!!!! ♥

Because I’ve worked so long and hard to free myself from those emotions and pains………..I wasn’t imagining that it had all originated within!!!     I was feeling as though something was calling to me from outside of myself……and I needed to resist in order to remain a bit sane.   (((Smile)))

This is yet another opportunity to recall and lovingly reclaim lost aspects of my beautiful soul!!!     I shall honor this guidance today…………and am sure that I will find Peace and Empowerment shortly.

In Gratitude and Ever-expanding Love,


A World of Silent Wonder


I find myself craving for and connecting to the stillness lately.

There’s a sacred point within all apparent creation and experience that speaks an unspoken message of magnificent truth.     That’s the stillness I speak of.    It’s so often lost in the cacophony of “worldly experience” that distracts us.   But…..it is all-pervading and shall always speak to our truest Self when we are ready to simply Listen.

I’ve been completely at home in that silent reverie these last few weeks…….and now am finding it a bit difficult to break that trance and re-immerse myself in the “world” we’ve created once again.

Does that happen to you??   Does it sometimes feel as though the “world” is so loud….that the cacophony of endeavored appearance and indifferent ambiguity stifles the voice of a deeper truth??

We….as an evolving and timeless society….have created a “world” within a world.    

One is filled with the chase of being all that is deemed as worthy, appropriate, true, and purposeful.    And the other just is.    It competes with no thing….and holds no aspirations within its being.    It silently awaits our notice….and then shares itself freely and completely at all levels of being!!

If….you happen to know of this wondrous and soft-spoken world I speak of….tell me please “How do you return to the cacophony once you’ve spent time in its loving embrace”??

That is where my pondering mind sits today!!

One world feels so incredibly supportive and expansive…..and one feels a bit chaotic in its approach.    I choose the first….but am also joyfully part of the second.     How do I find balance….to honor them both??

Dear Spirit….your insight is greatly appreciated.

Dear One….you are still seeing it all as an either/or experience.  It is not so…and never can be.   

The only difference between one and the other is Perception!!!!   No “world”….perceived or otherwise….can define your reality!!!!!!!!!!     You are always the creator of all you see, embrace, or know.

What silent voice within yourSelf is showing itself through these emotions??    Is there a part of you that feels less-than supported on the physical realm??

Remember my dear……….it can not be so!!!!    There is no true difference between Heaven and Earth.   Only your chosen Belief can make it so.

Choose the frequencies you wish to align with……and that is all you will know!!!   

Remember…it’s all a Choice!!   Forgetfulness and Remembrance, Love and Fear, Freedom and Conformity.    No choice is pre-ordained with certainty!!  You create the experience of your choice!!!

The world can only appear “loud”…… when you feel that you are losing yourself in it.   It can only sound like a cacophony……if you are uncomfortable with certain aspects of yourself (which are reflected in the world that surrounds you).

The “world” is only experiencing itself as it chooses.    What do you choose for your Self??

If you place your energy back within……you’ll see the shift take place without.

Honor yourSelf dear one.   As always……….this world is for you!!!!!

Wowwwwwwwww!!!    How differently I see all that I was pondering this morning.    This is so incredibly true.   Any “endeavored appearance and indifferent ambiguity” I sense……must lie within.

If heaven is to be created and fostered here on earth……….I AM the creator of that reality too.  

And so it is!!!   Thank You Spirit!!!  💛

In Joy and Ever-expanding Wonder,



Sweet Truth


There’s a moment that a Lotus recognizes its greater truth.   It recognizes its Beauty and Potential… and it changes nothing!!

Knowledge naturally shifts all within!! ♥

© Alania Starhawk 2015

The Source Within…


I do my best each day to walk with Integrity, Love, and Compassion.    I seek the highest perspective in each experience that may appear…and pray for only Blessings to touch each moment that can be.

I do this all for mySelf alone…so that I may find Peace and know Love in all ways.

Soooooo…you can imagine how frustrated I become when my emotions react to the “Whammies” (outer disruptions and challenges) that sometimes appear.  (((Smile)))

When some sort of difficulty/complication/resistance appears I often flow through a series of natural reactions that can fully take 18 seconds or 18 days for me to work through.   Here they are:

  • I stand in actual amazement that it has appeared.
  • My feathers ruffle a bit as I think “How dare I be treated this way” (even if no other human party is responsible).
  • I remember that I will rise “above” this….and infuse it with Love.
  • I return to a state of Gratitude…remembering that it’s all perfect.

In truth….I thought that I’ve been so brave and wise working through each distraction this way.    I had believed that my ability to infuse Love into a less-than loving experience was helping to shift humanity forward on its path to Peace.

But I feel differently today.

I seem to be a Whammy-magnet these last 10 days….which means that my emotions are shifting from high to low to high-low-high every 14 and a half minutes.    This makes it clear that my old “brave and wise” method for rising above is not so darn “brave and wise” after all.     It’s time to re-evaluate.

And suddenly I see…………….if I’m needing to “rise above” anything…………I’m not trusting in the Infinite LOVE that flows through Me in all moments!!       If I’m still believing in right/wrong, healthy/unhealthy, supportive/unsupportive…..I’m still believing that it is possible to thrive OR survive in this great big beautiful world!!!

If I believe that I can and will “survive” in spite of anything that appears……..then I’m giving POWER to an outside world of unpredictable uncertainties.

And I don’t choose to give my precious Power over to any outside force.


That means that I fully TRUST in the Infinite Flow and Source I hold within!!    The world may spiral and unfold as it chooses for itself…………….but MY world is an ever-flowing expansion of possibility!!     I no longer require a barage of outer Whammies to remind me that my TRUE SOURCE of Love, Security, and Peace lies within!!     I am always and forever-more WHOLE within mySelf!!

And so are you!!!! ♥

What I’m looking to shift and heal….is the belief that ANY experience can be less-than loving or supportive for me.    It’s all just experience.    Only my interpretation can look at it as less-than Divine!!!

No matter that which appears…….I AM LOVED and I AM LOVE!!

In JOY and Ever-expanding Wonder,


What Love Is ♥


Love does not conform or mold to fit any pre-conceived beliefs that can be.   It doesn’t Love “in spite of”…and it doesn’t make allowances or set unjust expectations.    It simply is…genuine and pure.     It is the Spark of God-Light manifest.   It is the Gift of LIFE in sweet motion.   It is the Wonder of BLISS embodied!!

Forever-flowing and expanding into all that is and can be……………….LOVE is the way!!

As we allow ourSelves to become the Vessel, the Channel, and the Beacon of LOVE upon this earth…………we become the SACRED ONES who welcome Heaven to Earth!!   Are you ready to bring change….and to inspire PEACE on this earth plane??

Allow yourSelf to Love beyond measure, to BE Loved without fear, to TEACH Love without judgment, and to SEE Love leading the way!!    For every Seed of LOVE we plant today……..shall continue to flow and grow in incomprehensible form. ♥

© Alania Starhawk 2015